yikes.

I find it rather funny the extents people go to because of their insecurities and jealousy..I dunno if its intimidation or what? I use to support a friend of mine with certain activities they participated in and every time I came around I seem to be center of attention. These people were so uninviting and so unaccepting I was quite mortified. The funny part is I don't even know why... I didn't even know any of them really to begin with. Even though we were all there in support of a good cause it sure did not matter at all. The dirty looks and snide comments sure did not fail. I come to realize certain people stay within their own groups and do not let any outsiders in for whatever reason, apparently kindness gets you absolutely no where with people like this. Its quite disturbing especially when you do not know them personally. For someone to have so much hatred towards someone they don't know or never met before or even had a convo with is quite disgusting. People that are not comfortable in their own skin are not ready to deal with the circumstances of life. Failure is a great fear, but not an option for me.

The ones that are about peace are always the ones to destroy it.

Dangers of Society

"When one trusts her companions and the world around to provide, if not what she thinks she needs, at least something equally weird and wonderful, she too can be gentle and generous. If she feels threatened by them, she grows defensive and aggressive, strikes out blindly, becomes possessed by resentment and cruelty. Vengeance becomes her greatest motivation, more powerful than any other desire: anything to take revenge upon this world."

Alive in the land of dead

There is no universal moral code that should dictate human behavior. There is no such thing as good or evil, there is no universal standard of right or wrong. Our values and morals come from us and belong to us, whether we like it or not; so we should claim them proudly for ourselves, as our own creations, rather then seeking some external justification for them.

Freedom is to be found only in the sensation of acting of self (creation) the realization through "nothing is true everything is permitted".The revolutionary finds freedom in the experience of totally transforming society. The moral is that a situation where all meaning is is already attributed, freedom is irrelevant, for all your possible actions are already determined. Freedom is to be found. In new spaces, in new moments when fresh elements come into play. The problem with all this is that the exercise of total freedom is bound to conflict with your own desires.

I surrender..

I strongly believe that it's better to lose your pride to the one you love than to lose the one you love because of pride.We spend too much time looking for the right person to love & finding fault with those we already love, when instead we should be perfecting the love we give.When you truly care for someone,you don't look for faults,you don't look for answers,& you don't look for mistakes.Instead, you fight the mistakes,you accept the faults,& you overlook the excuses.To me loving someone is putting everything else in the world that makes them happy before you & giving yourself completely in the process.Life is full of risks why not take them allowing yourself to love someone unconditionally.To give love unconditionally requires that you close your eyes,see with your heart,touch with your soul & trust with your life." You can't fail if you don't give up. Another important point to remember is that the root of selfishness is fear. Fear is what motivates you to protect yourself. That is why a selfish person is constantly in self–preservation mode. The way to get rid of selfishness is to get rid of fear. Perfected love casts out fear. Fear is dangerous. It opens the door for the Enemy to come in and wreck havoc in your life. It also produces negative forces like offense, strife and unforgiveness. However, love empowers you to the point that you will be slow to take offense and quick to forgive. Keep in mind that when you fail to develop in love, you fail to develop in character, which means you perpetuate a lifestyle of selfishness. The Serenity Prayer: "God grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, & Wisdom to know the difference." This is a bleeding heart & an exhausted tongue laying it out there..dripping with brutal truth & honesty: Sometimes the people you hold so dearly in this life are the ones that you hurt the most..life is too short to keep loved ones away..(love will tear us apart) to hold grudges, to judge someone by their looks, or age..as humans we are interesting creatures, we are the only ones with the capacity to love someone genuinely, the willingness to put someone else before ourselves, & the commitment it takes to truly be with someone, but sadly we also possess an innate propensity to betray & hurt the people most important to us..we turn our backs on our friends..sometimes our own family..even our lovers..we say things we don't mean, & we do things we don't mean to do..with so much going on at times..it's often hard to find the right way, the right things to say, the right way of doing things, but the only thing we can do to get by is seize each & every day. We can't keep turning our backs on what we should truly cherish in this life, because there truly is absolutely nothing worth regretting...& certainly nothing worth going over the deep end for. Even when we find ourselves in hell..we must breathe, we must take the time to let the dust settle, & we must accept the events that transpire..(hold still) no matter how bad the sting, how hard the fall, or how severe the pain..there's always a way & a reason to carry on in a harsh world like today..friends & family are all you have. They are all you can count on. Cherish them. There are stories of coincidence and chance, of intersections and strange things told, and which is which and nobody knows; and we generally say, "Well, if that was in a movie, I wouldn't believe it." In this big game that we play, life, it's not what you hope for, it's not what you deserve, it's what you take.  Light travels faster than sound. That's why some people appear bright until you hear them speak.

Gem

I have learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. I have learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back. I have learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it. I have learned that it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts. I have learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you'd better know something. I have learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them. I have learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't. I have learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it. I have learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time. I have learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up. I have learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel. I have learned that true friendship continues to grow. Same goes for true love. I have learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. I have learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated. I have learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that. I have learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief. I have learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become. I have learned that sometimes when my friends fight, I'm forced to choose sides even when I don't want to. I have learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do. I have learned that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change. I have learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever. I have learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different. I have learned that no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves get farther in life. I have learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help. I have learned that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being. I have learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon. I have learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe.